2009 +0001

Yet another new year. 1st January of every yr is a typical dotted moment to reminisce the past 365 dys of history. Then u will start realising.....start questioning the very basis questions ..........what have i achieved?what have i done? what have i discovered? what have i found? what have i wanted? what have i got? has 2009 been a fruitful year............

Many may start of ~ohno. i should start making new yr resolutions of 2010 that i shall pursuit with all my heart~ *sarcasm*=p No. i dont really believe in new yr resolutions though. as 4 individuals, it really depends on one's persistence and optimism to continuously set frequent updated goals of life and without doubt achieving it through daily effort. Rather than setting a wishful list of unattainable goals , why not live by the day...with achievable happiness through frequent achievements of ur dream. little part by part..and it will eventually sum up to a reputable 'BIG" achievement in the end of the year=) however, words are easily spitted out but actions are hard to swallow. other words, easier said than done. at times, fate conquers it all.


Another yr has past, i would definitely be lying if i said i havent been thinking bout my past 2009 days. A rather satisfying and mediocre year though. With lots of ups and downs, hopefully it leads a positive route to improve myself though.lol.And without fail, i have been showered with the same old question," Omg, ur still single?" To no avail, unfortunately its the same old ans, "yes, i am & im proud 2be.weeee" Its the Single Ladies power, " All the single ladies, put ur hands up..oh ~oh~oh" ....*humming to Beyonce's Single ladies" wtf.shaking ass profusely. ~oh~oh~oh. damn.

Back to square1, yea. December has been a relaxing month 4me.a good time to end off 2009. Going out.staying home.sleeping out.sleeping home.eating out.eating home. it practically revolves around 'out and home'. Wish i could go for a trip though but not really in a mood 4it.

Just some mobile pics that are discarded from my phone for new pics of 2010 to take place. old gone for the new..






Girls night out to curve
A trip to Penang for Autocity Cup Prix. Stayed in a junk hotel that even my store room is rated better than the room, ridiculously welcomed into the room with a pungent smell of 1000yr old carpet . Fortunately, the view of the calming sea was pleasing.



A dy b4 new yr eve, 21st surprise bdy party for bdy gal ~ Long Bar



Then, Went to a new club at AHR , ~Gosh~ with denise ,shirley, wai peng. Unattractive concepts





A belated Christmas cbration cum New year cbration too with my my loving loving sistas~ pui mun, natasha, winnie, pui yan, sook yan and the missing shee ann .




BBq time~ indeed a crazy yet cosy new yr cbration with my sistas as we danced along with party poppers, shouted like a lunatic on the street and not to forget..getting all squashy with marinated chicken breast=p

From left to right:~

*Nat: " Hmm. how do wrap this fat potato with this 1cmx1xm foil wrapper?....horizontally?vertically?hmmmm"

Phang: *focus focus* squid !! stay still!!

Winnie: *undefined purpose of standing there*



My homemade spaggeti with its sauce. Unfortunately , none of the gals shed 5kg after eating my 'delicious' spaghetti. As i thought it would be an awesome intake to detoxify their system. It was then proven safe for consumption .

A day after new yr, a trip to a new club~ G6 but it was indeed a dull club. No dance floor with overloaded senior citizen*uncle clubber*.

holiday mood *tuned*

1more ppr and im done. for this sem at least. typically emotions struck down of preempted sensation of pre-planning stuff 2 do. firstly, satisfy my fundamental physiological need....sleep. i have been sleep depived for years ,not days. yea. im one who can prob sleep anywhere at anytime now the fact that i have not been sleeping properly. -p

Christmas is nearrr. but im feeling like Scrooge.lol. need. guess i need the ghosts of past, present and soon to be to visit me.=) just feel like all celebration are just another ordinary day. unlike last time where excitements and unexpected emotions of happiness when i was a small kid.

Another must-to-do is to watch movie......

Why whyyyy.i seriously have this weird disease of temporary exitement...hmmm. was feeling so excited the other day thinking bout 'it'. but ltr thinks its just another temporary enjoyment....hmmmm. if its not bcz of those chracteristics.i would have fallen into the loop. aint happening though.its cause and effect

Thinking simple

Its me , thinking simple, thinking diff


feeling really different now. in every sense, comparing to the life i used to lead. Gradually changing as i know time waits for none. Live it or leave it. As long as im having fun . It wouldn't last for long neither, experience and memories utters modification for better being. As long as i know what refers to the main track to maintain for success. Im not dumb...

I felt like indulging yet i know the limitations. Limitations that ensures nothing lose, but only gained. Yet, its temptations. Wouldnt it be awesome .Being treated like u wished. Im still not dumb

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Stereotypes mindset at times are true. Rich and famous are often unloyal. Its like disposable items, where u can use it for excitement purposes but nvr indulge in it to a state of heroin where u cant live without it. Supercars, free flows, bank notes... they owned. But nvr an option for a life partner. They have in hand a line of megahwatt chickas , u would be just another 1 although u feel like ur being treated differently.

On the other hand, its just disappointment and pithiness at times looking at some chickas that 'kneel' down with depression begging to stay on with those they owned- the ones that are rich & famous... So what if ur a queen of fame when ur with them, u noe it instant fame , nothing lasting.

Kiss kiss, dirty dirty, rich rich, flirty flirty

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Modelle Beauty 50

A spare of nanoseconds from my ticking ornament to ramble here. As I'm under going era of assignments, choice is not an option. dateline is neither. Hw i wish the invention of cloning has found a causal link for its good use towards human beings without interfering mother nature. In other words, wish there was a mini-me*wink* where i could spare myself from doing any unwanted actions. As mini -me will be in slavery world of my tortures as how i've been torturing myself.=) Cant wait 4graduation and for sure start rambling bout working life then. its life, satisfaction or appreciation of current state will always be in disguise. yupz. thats me, always feeling under satisfactory. 'no enuf' '____'


**On the other hand, currently joined a competition called Beauty 50 /Modelle 50. Trust me,im still in a stagnant state of mind, "omg.errrrr" ........... Long story. Will elaborate & elongate it when i have some grandmother time. Fun experience though. great prizes. Voting base comp

*** Speedzone Tour 2009 was interesting but hell tiring. I was staring at the crazy speed vibration of head to toe in the audience, yet holding back my arse from vibrating....cause im not there to vibrate, m there to Work my arse off. Yea, il probably get fired at the spot if my arse start vibrating. As i know the only my legs were vibrating like a old grandma after the event, after standing 4hours. Had a good night sleep bck at hotel, day is always night, & night is always day at Genting.

Yet today

Mouth: is a tool or rather god given weapon that is equally substantial physically regardless individual yet it stands out tremendously initiating the impact it results

Looks or intellectual. fame or books. seductive or innocence. modest or extraordinaire.

Hmmm. elements of life that's bearable at times & vice verse.

hahaaa

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Satisfied with all effort and time after looking at .. ........Harvesting is the best part.cant wait ..... drooling. Disregard foolish comments that these erupts regrettably of life enjoyment.


At times, i wonder , do these people realize? Realism of reality is crucial. Their behavior that lasts , cz its just them rite, cz behavior could be broken but not for personality or characteristics. U could train yourself to wake up early if u wanted it, its behavior of time management but u cant change the way you judge and speak to express ur those judgemental scope. In short, its hard or rather impossible to change personality/characteristics. Inborn elements.....Thus, rather hard for those peeps to survive in reality cz realism is not there. She could be advising u," I think you should not say that,......" Work once, nvr twice. He would repeating those verbs again in near future. Its just inborn=)
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Ughh. why do i feel like i have a million tasks to be accomplish yet im like having all the time in the world now. Has my clock stop ticking? Or is it just today im feeling all the time that i hve not felt for 1 thousand dinosaur years. Gotta start whipping arse 2gt the lazy donkey working!!!

wohoo

Human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives.

Dead blog.=) Anyway, wouldnt care much if its dead, as im not keen in publishing my rants in the eyes of public. Or being a popular blogger or somewhat, just a secluded chamber to turn to when i feel like transforming thoughts into words.

Looking at my last post, july 20.....much have passed since then. with my short span memory , cant remember much=)

Learn so much, beliefs that every individuals have soo ooo much to learn, in spite of the wide wondrous scope of these hidden knowledge. Do you feel that life is short enough to live to its fullest by doing what u feel like doing? stuff that would maximise ur enjoyment and satisfaction of happiness. careless for any trouble u'll encountered as live life once, for all.

Or likewise, live to its fullest of applaudable manner, doing everything right as it is. Plan, analyze , foresee, effort and harvest your rewards in distinguished path?


damn. philosophy class scrambled my neutrons. Speaking bout classes, have been thinking much bout my path. classes & getting involved for future rewarding purposes . or just being plain jane going 4 clases, thus not pressuring myself to utilise my extremely limited time left nowadays.

Time, why is it nonadjustable....just so limited..

Ughh. boring philosophical verbs above meant to be disposed. need some vibrant colors to cheer a lass my age.


Make uppp, tool of wondrous.


*Free MAC =)



*Raw make up skill of mine, need some time of practice.. Practice makes perfect. nahhh, too much will then result emerging 'volcanoes with uneven bumps of impurities'. which im feeling it now. i got a feeling .wohooo.'______'
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u or u?

A comparison i have commended. Hmm, a result which in fact deters from my initial & all this while i thought is the substantial requirements i searched. Two diff persona, two diff personalities, two diff preferences, 1 prefered choice. Which would it be? Each hold understanding of pros & cons.