christmas jingles

its a white Christmas. pure distinct way to celebrate 'HIS' birthday. memorable celebration. may not be the same again but least it did was once celebrated in this manner '2010.

make a wish...

cause ive did...=)

satisfactory of life

was indeed taken aback by a recent news of a mere young adult taking his own life committing suicide in the name of love. Many may critique his pure foolishness that satisfy only his need of satisfaction without taking into consideration his loved ones. My take was that everyone have their fair chance of making decisions in their life, moving towards hope or moving back towards path of depression are decisions that any capable man could make. lose one is a door towards opportunity of yet another better catch. easier said than done but it is at times depends on the ability to reshuffle your twisted mind of whats left and regain control over your own life. No one would be capable of loving his/her own self anymore than another individual may do. is dying over love prove otherwise? arguable based on ones maturity looking at purpose of life. Mapping goals of life to gain money, fame, family, or love? For which aspect you would die for?

disturbing in every way how one look at the his purpose of life. Intriguing how one's main aim of living is to fill over the empty space of mind for love. No doubt love is magical at times with its capabilities that utterly gain means of happiness it result. In any means of the failure attempts result in a depressive and sadness manner of life afterwards, attempting to gain over the once over happiness, rethinking their mistakes, what if and only if. In my thoughts, mistakes or succession resulted from decisions and actions are mostly irreversible as lightning dont struck the same place twice. You could have done things differently, you could have did otherwise but it is just act of reasoning in creating a reason for failure fall back of matters that failed, that did not produce the result you have wanted.

At times, depressed over matters that impacted the way they look at life, just simple thoughts would ease the discomfort emotions. being grateful for for whats left of life , looking at the brighter side and not taking too much consideration weighing over the lack off . Looking at what he/she is good at are better than looking at points he/she is lack off.

reversing the irreversible

a new day
learning the new
a new day
experiencing the new
a new day
disguising the new
a new day
excitement for the new
a new day
efforts for something new
a new day
proclaiming u are now new

yet
the new days will come to an end where
shattered memories, flashbacks of an utterly unforgettable glimpse
will struck. foolishly carved a worthless smile of joy

anticipation emotions

a journey of intriguing path is predetermine. or at least hints is showered.depending how u interpret it. a norm for me now. confusing at times. inner reminder telling myself to keep track . focusing on whats really important in life. succession in aspects as i have always wanted.

fantasies are dreams of realism. when you are awake....u will know. as long as u are aware. mentally

remorseful guilt

guilty and remorse now.yet.its its a chain of spontaneity w/t planing. feeling guilty towards certain party. however You determine btr than predetermine. Yet, diff outcome would be contributing to hopefully nothing bad.


Hit me in resentful thoughts that guiltiness take over like. Words that enlighten me with its burden it carried. Weird...Made me realised that i shouldnt take matters for granted as i did.cz maybe sincerity will one day has its limit.

still here

long hiatus from blogging. yet life isnt experiencing any hiatus though. speeding like there's no tmrw. been looking bck at d last post ive posted and it was definite a hibernation of a bear. -.- hell lots have been happened since then. good bad exciting dramatism whateva shit. yet, life's good. really feel that one write a chapter of history in their life tale daily. ur the determinant.....

im lovin every single bits ...

Metaphor Disguise

metaphor disguise

How weird .nerve wrecking. At times knowing it is bad for u , yet you're not at a position to control your addiction .Speechless.....Time..if only i could adjust it to my liking.