Venezuela~

Fast lane as time flies unintended in Venezuela, the rainy moody tropical weather of hot and cold had made the days pass slow. A week more for completion and its holiday for real, not that coming here isnt a sort of holiday, but its an assigned work-holiday, hence it does not give the  freedom of just-holiday mood . Nevertheless, I will be  missing the friendly and accommodating people I know here.

Awaiting for the exit meeting and off to main city of Venezuala, Caracas and Paris for a real holiday ....last but not least, home sweet home which im pretty much excited. It has always been weird how much I longed for trips abroad when Im back home ,but yet easily feel homesick when im away from my loved ones....undeniably indecisive characteristics =) or maybe it was just the missing thoughts of ones I loved.

Decided to document my laidback half a month lifestyle at the small town of Maturin as Im not a fan of taking pictures of every single 'atom/particle' I see, but rather documenting it in words seems more interesting for me. A sedentary and different lifestyle here, relaxing. A place that I would longed to live in upon retirement  ...."retirement" in the sense whereby when you have seen all you have wanted to see in live, whereby when you have heard all you have wanted to hear, whereby you have experience all you have not known and hence, a relaxing lifestyle.

The diversity of culture here is interesting with mainly Spanish, Portugese  and surprisingly Indians. A rather poor city of Maturin with graffiti paintings all over is not a city of tourist destination. An amounted of 20 police cars in total in this Maturin town to cater safety assurance of thousands of residents nevertheless ridiculous. A city that speaks no English is real hard to be living in if you cant speak the native Espanol. Sight of the poor ones in the streets gave a sense of appreciation to the life you had , many may feel how inadequate the lifestyle they had now but its rather different when you have seen the unlucky ones with much more thankfulness in life. To be one whom is blessed over a meal they had for the day is worthy to life compared to ones whom feel "blessed" over luxuries of branded materialistic of life.

To be honest, everyone which includes me have had that luxury dreams of gaining every superficial achievement of lives, an undefined monetary value , an undefined satisfaction to everything beautiful to mankind....because we had seen the sight of things we wanted. To be walking in the exclusive luxury streets of Dubai and passing by the poor streets of Maturin is a different experience as a whole.

Yet, a turn-around thoughts also gave a different view of needs to achieve....be ever achieving in all dreams of life yet appreciative of everything you hold.

Before you start complaining about the party you cant attend, think about the working labourer who cant attend his loved family's funeral since he had no money to return to his home town ...

Before you start complaining about how unlucky you are to be working overtime, think about the about to due pregnant lady walking in the streets selling food just to sufficiently provide daily meal for her other kids...

Realised that I have written a sentimental preaching post all of the sudden=p

To how deep you dream, you can achieved
To how much you need, you would get
To how much you love, you would be loved
To how much you appreciated, you would be blessed

Jakarta~

A moment to dribble a few thoughts here having a relaxing day on a comfy bed reviving the long lost bloggie. Days in Jakarta are passing by slow this time. Sight of the beautiful busy city at the tip of my curtain is influencing me to not step out of the room to roam round the center of city. And of coz accompanied by the best thoughts thats daunting me=)

"A girl is happiest when she knows you make her your everything...in front of everyone, all the time".

nothing is too...

contemplating thoughts. where the mind is at a state of self-perceive dreams , inception of my own story into place. my story into my life.life is just a journey where there is always an end to it. it is not the end on winning that matters, yet the pathway that determines. nothing is too serious, nothing is too dangerous , nothing is too real, nothing is too anything, nothing is too _____*fill in d blank...take things easy n mediocre will be the guidance.

i deceive the seen, i believe my dreams

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are
Who you are

christmas jingles

its a white Christmas. pure distinct way to celebrate 'HIS' birthday. memorable celebration. may not be the same again but least it did was once celebrated in this manner '2010.

make a wish...

cause ive did...=)

satisfactory of life

was indeed taken aback by a recent news of a mere young adult taking his own life committing suicide in the name of love. Many may critique his pure foolishness that satisfy only his need of satisfaction without taking into consideration his loved ones. My take was that everyone have their fair chance of making decisions in their life, moving towards hope or moving back towards path of depression are decisions that any capable man could make. lose one is a door towards opportunity of yet another better catch. easier said than done but it is at times depends on the ability to reshuffle your twisted mind of whats left and regain control over your own life. No one would be capable of loving his/her own self anymore than another individual may do. is dying over love prove otherwise? arguable based on ones maturity looking at purpose of life. Mapping goals of life to gain money, fame, family, or love? For which aspect you would die for?

disturbing in every way how one look at the his purpose of life. Intriguing how one's main aim of living is to fill over the empty space of mind for love. No doubt love is magical at times with its capabilities that utterly gain means of happiness it result. In any means of the failure attempts result in a depressive and sadness manner of life afterwards, attempting to gain over the once over happiness, rethinking their mistakes, what if and only if. In my thoughts, mistakes or succession resulted from decisions and actions are mostly irreversible as lightning dont struck the same place twice. You could have done things differently, you could have did otherwise but it is just act of reasoning in creating a reason for failure fall back of matters that failed, that did not produce the result you have wanted.

At times, depressed over matters that impacted the way they look at life, just simple thoughts would ease the discomfort emotions. being grateful for for whats left of life , looking at the brighter side and not taking too much consideration weighing over the lack off . Looking at what he/she is good at are better than looking at points he/she is lack off.

reversing the irreversible

a new day
learning the new
a new day
experiencing the new
a new day
disguising the new
a new day
excitement for the new
a new day
efforts for something new
a new day
proclaiming u are now new

yet
the new days will come to an end where
shattered memories, flashbacks of an utterly unforgettable glimpse
will struck. foolishly carved a worthless smile of joy